I haven't updated this thing in more than 9 months... I decided i needed a xanga and was using that, but I think I'm gonna start using this to vent and talk about stuff I dont actually feel comfortable talking about on the xanga.

Since my last post, I have switched schools (now at San Jac), been all over the east coast for summer vacation... and stayed broken up with my GF... we were together for the better part of 3 years. I am crushed over that and it eats at me everyday... but there is nothing I can do about it.

My spirtual life is about nill... I screw up so much it is frustrating...I feel consumed by my lust, and i feel so powerless. I have hurt the ones I love the most with this, but i feel so powerless to do anything about it.

That's it for now...